hullo~

hey people... i got nothing to do... so decided to write something... just now i already write a post.. but failed... bloody hell... hahaha... somemore write until so happy... hehehe.... aniwei, i am now omarion's fans!!.... gosh... u all know him?? he is a black r n b singer and he looks soooooo sweet... hehehehe... and very friendly and a very good dancer... i saw his video over and over again... and also when i watched mtv trl... he was the guest there... wooo.... sweeeth... and he's grooving to da beat... coolee.
hehehe... he also got dat kind of puppy-guy face look... hehehe... nice nice!!
aniwei, i will post again, on my trip to usa... hehe... got to know some new people.. visited new exciting places and ate variety of food..
i will post more detailed one.. later....
gotta go already.. hehehe

ciao~
me

Harlow ppl~ i have arrived in Usa safely... ;p

hello people... finally i reached Austin, Texas... hehehe...
so tired and sleeppy... but today we have so much fun, coz we finally reached and i am very happy with the place... it's very cooling and kinda small-town- athmosphere.. peacefull and nt busy... then we ate our dinner .. we called in "pluckers", a restaurant that is famous for the chicken wings.. they have many different flavour.. like the sweet one, salty one, and also the spicy one.. aniway that's wad we ordered.. i dun realli know about the rest of the menu.. lolz.. i tink ting will like it.. coz she is chicken wing crazee.. amy also ;p.. hehe...
then, we went to a cafe.. it's a quiet cafe called mozart.. the place is quite big and there was a live band.. played those mellow eazy going guitar.. nice ambience.. overlooking the sea/ river.. as we sat in the ourdoor seats... realli a nice place to chill out... i tink the worhoggies can stay for hours!! haha.. the buzzes will be worst i tink! whole day!! haha..
yeah, get to know some of my sister's friends.. indonesians.. and they are all very friendly and funny.. haha.. yeah... although i wasnt realli toking dat much... i was abit tired though.. hehe.. and i realli dying for a hot bath.. coz the weather was so cold.. ;p

yeah.. then i saw my latest blogskin in my blog... and yeah.. its cool.. hehe.. dat's da skin blog dat i like.. hehe.. but a little freaky yeah.. hehe... but too bad the music video cant work.. hehe.. but ting... thanks for the work!! hehe.. ;p
aniwei, i dunno whether i will keep this skin.. hehe.. coz this skin cant allow ppl to view the title.. yeah..
aniwei, i will post more tomorrow... i have wrote some things on my journey to austin.. and when i was on plane.. yeah.. now, i am too sleepy to do that.. hehe..

ok~ good nite ppl... ,
smile ;D
me

hey!!!

i'v done ur blog skin... should be tis ba... life as a bitch! anyway i tink tat mtv is spoilt de ba... if not can't be cannot de... anyway i signup a tagboard for ya.. it a cbox wan... u go check ur yahoomail... it has send the details to there... i use da same password and user name as ur blog de... cos i lazy to tink one.. haha anyway anything u wanna change just tell mi online then... hopefully u can see tis post...
evilPig^@^ here!

those days............................

hello... this is the thing dat i always forget to post... it was actually happening on 3rd may, dunno wad day... but dat day i remember, i was going to school and just woke up... wasnt in a good mood.. coz i dun get enuff sleep.. hehe.. aniwei, wile i was changing, i was listening to a song, and tried to open my eyes, when i suddenly remembered one incident in the past.. it was about death.. and dream, and me and him.. yeah..
i tink it was in year 4 or 5.. i kinda forgot already.. this is the original post..

3rd may, 8.44 am..
When i was changing and listening to some music, suddenly my mind popped back to the memory of 2 or 3 years ago.. (or more than dat..). Remember that time i dreamt of him and in my dream he was dead?
(i think all of u know which he..)
i remembered i was so shocked when i woke up and even cried. <-- farni rite.. lolz.. and i prayed that he won't die and all...
And when i reach school, i waited for him (for the first time, obvious one.. i think.. normally i never wait for him..unless something cropped up..) and when he came and saw me, i was so relieved! Gosh!!
he is there, kicking, talking crap, giving me those sweet gestures.... and is alive..
i think we did fight that day or a few days after, i don't know why, but we did fight. coz i remember saying: " great lar, still so act!!, in my dream you are rotting already!!" lolz... joking of course...
i was so scared anything bad will happen to him after that. i was scared that he will really die and leave me...
hahaha.. so sweet right... still say i am a heartless bitch towards guys.. but he has gone.. hehe.. "die" anyway..
i don't mean die as in physically, but the thing between us..
that was the first time i am so afraid of losing someone.. at least i have learnt something in life.. hehe.. is that to cherish..
when i remembered dat... i just felt farni... n a few days after dat i actually dreamt of him.. wth rite.. i told ting when we were swimming and i tink maybe we just mizzed each other so badly... wahahhaa... nah.. not dat... ;p

later on, feeling 1/2 awake, drying my hair, and combing it..finding "sport attire" for the school event thingy....
finally; my "sport attire" turned out to be denim mini skirt and a white top.. haha.. not dat sporty ba..
aniwei, just go like dat, still half awake...
cursing and was so damn pizzed off to be awake so early and the thought of finishing at 5pm realli made me mad.
tok a cab and finally reached on time. met my friend and waited ( searched for da room) and no one was there.
met a guy, wif spiky hair... looks like he is going for the training too.. coz he looked as confused as we were. finally went down and got to the right place. it was locked. sat on the bench and he met his other friends.. was across each other and realised dat he was looking a little like my best friend (the fair farni guy) but cuter of course! ;p
caught him looking a few times, and ok.. he is un- natex.. at least i am improved rite galz!! ;p
aniwei, he was kinda friendly... super friendly i guess.. he made his first move by toking to me and telling me to go to the rite place and there!! we did the chicken dance!! damn... in front of everybody... 7 of us luckily..
later, we decided not to follow the training anymore, and ma fren asked me for lunch..
went to tampines mall and then.. met him again.. wth?
at delifrace.. he was waving happily.. me--> wad the hell?? huh?? who is dat??
he--> kept waving and pointed at me.. coz i looked around.. haha... so i --> waved back n smiled ;)
super friendly guy and nice.. ok.. at least my day is not so sux,,,
went to eat, shop, tried many clothes.. hehe... and brought a little missy soft lime green top ;p
has been my target for quite sometimes though...
go home, mizzed my bus, 1/2 sleeping.... yawn... ZzzZZzzzzz...........

going off...
me

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz dam angry!!

sux!! i dunno wad is bloody wrong wif my blog!! i cant change a ting!! so annoying!! i find better templates, and many video clips lor... haiz... tried like hell but cant... whereas in crazee buzz wan, just took a few seconds can already...
shit lar... so sad... i found 3 clips dat i wanna consider man!!
1. blink 182- always----- dam romantic song wif al of them wearing suits and trav looks dam cute there....
2. the killers- somenbody told me----- not realli a nice video...
3. sum 41- pieces--- dam!! so cool!!! love da video like hell... and deryck loooks so cool there... with his new black hair and dying-drunken-sexy voice.. i tink amy wil agree wif me.. but cone looks like a geek there... haha.. like total geek! lolz.. so skinny n fair.. haha

and i saw a farni but ok video.. one of my fave song, last nite-- by the stokes.. God.. the singer realli sing when he is drunk.. haha... no wonder sounds so real.. u all know i always like dat kind of voices, like just wake up/drunk/ dying.. for a rock-punk singer lar... hehehe.. sound more sincere and cool.. so real!!
but all wasted!! sad man!! cant even put one lor... bloody lah...

so angry----------------------------annoying!!!
arrrgh!!!!
me

ozzzzz

harlow~
was dam bored... quite happie, but still haven realli find a bag.. hehe.. n shoe..
saw a nice aladin arabian slip shoe.. tot of buying.. sigh*
i was feeling weird, coz i tink i am just not unwell.. like realli not myself...
maybe becoz i wasted too much time of useless stuffs???
i also dun know wad i want in life..
obviously, to be succesfull... a successful person if can.. yeah..
to be independent... yeah
but i am just feel lost now.. dunno y.. like realli lost somewhere in space...
was bored, but lazy...
was unwell, but faking...
dunno wad i am doing also..
i tink i need to meditate soon... to live a simple live, to be myself again, to be back in my normz..
2 days ago, i was reminded of some old memories... yeah...
how i was dealing wif it in da past... quite proud of maself though.. hehe..
i was actually thinking of posting it, but i always forget...
haha.. when i felt dat, on dat day, i was writing in on a piece of paper... coz i tink dat time, i realli felt wad it was, and if i were to recall back, i dun tink i can realli put it in words properly..
it's about dream, death, and farewell... yeah...
now, i cant take the piece of paper, coz it's somewhere in my bag.. haha...
i guess i just dunno how i was in those days~

preplexed and unwell,
me

don't strand me..

i don't wanna be stranded ..........................