friends forever

today was quite a stressful and tiring day for me..
ok lar, there was a misunderstanding between me n one of my male best frend,
and it was becoz of miscommunication.. he waited for me in this place, for like almost 1 hour, n i was like going to different place... yeah...
anyway, things got realli bad when we tried to explain each other alibi, and obviously since it's miscommunication, it's 2 different story lar...
so, we ignored each other, and was dam pizzed with each other for the whole day... yeah, and it's obvious and ppl around us, were scared to do anything to us, coz we looked scarry... n can explode anytime..
anyway, things got cool down, at nite, and i think it's kinda okay already, although we talked in realli realli cold-awkward-stiff way...
i hope tml will be better.... yeah

anyway,
2 days ago, was one of my best friend birthday.. he was kinda busy, stuck in army and we hardly meet or talk.. normally, he will call me and ask me how i am doing and all those things.. but it was normally he who calls me..
until dat day, i think 3 weeks ago, i felt dat it's been such a long time, since i talked to him, so i decided to call him instead of him calling me... ( coz i think friendship, should be 2 way rite?) then, when i called him, i sounded so stiff and i dunno wad to say.. haha... it lasted not mroe than 2 minutes, and he told me he was busy, n i just like, ok busy arr... ok lor.. bye... n we hung up.. n i was kinda sad n pizzed by it, coz i mean, wth?? n our tones were like cold n wth kind..

so, i tot our friendship was kinda on rock, and may end asap, coz we onli connected through phone calls and sometimes, he came to my house. i did tot it was like going to end.. haha.. i know i am not a good friend, for not believeing in him when we say friends forever.... lolz...

then, i think 3 weeks later, which is this week, 2 days ago... i messaged him, coz it was his bday.. n i realli never expect for any reply coz i realli think he wont anyway...

surprisingly, he was not onli replying... he called me, and the way he talked was like so nice lor..
he sounded so gentle.. ok i know it's funny to tink dat he can speak gently but he did...like very warm kind.. haha.. n actually i was sleeping when he called me, so i was half dead.. haha.. n he did talked about some stuffs.. ok, i kind forget wad, but it was just a simple-short-sweet- caring message like, how r u doing, and mostly about our lives... n i told him dat i bought him something when i was in usa, and he was like saying maybe he will come to my houz to take.. n wished him bday ( i think i did...) and when he almost hung up ( he must go back to camp already) , he said something about baby" ok.. dat baby" n i suddenly awake!!! hahaha..
but i dun get the first 2 words before baby's name, something like " i will tell baby". or " do u still call baby". or something like i promise baby" .... ok.. i dunno wad, but it's something abt me and baby.. n after dat, when i asked him to say again, he said it's nothing... so, i dunno wad is the actual words....

ok, then today, he called me suddenly and told me dat he will pass my houz n whether wanna meet anot.. i was actualli lazy, but he said he may not know when he can come to my houz again, cos his ns is very very busy... , so we met, he waited for me for 15 mins, coz i was finding some things ( ok, it's his, and baby's 2 years ago c'mas gifts!... i dun even know where r the things now.. hahaha..) so, i just forget about it, when i cant find it, though i found the kad, but this friend of mine, tell me it's not a nice idea to give c'mas kad now... (it's june!!)

ok, we met and talked.. not too long, not too short... standing in the middle of the street.. haha... coz the bus stop was like crowded and got lots of ppl... so we just stand and talked.. n laughed about silly things... move a few metres closer to my houz, coz it's getting dark (almoz 10) n there were many workers... oh yeah, he told me i looked better with long hair...n ask me not to cut, when i told him my plan of cutting it into doll doll sytle... i tot i already have long hair since sec 4? maybe dam long nvr meet already... day blur guy....

then, i told him dat i did not buy anything for baby, coz i dun even think of him , n kind forget also.. haha.. n mostly pizz.. haha... i bought this ax blouse for him and some chocolates... so, i told him, if u wanna give baby, just give him one of the small choco, n tell him, onli dat!! haha....
but this best fren of mine is too kind, n too good to his other best frend (baby's his best frend too), so he said he will give him all the choco to him!!!!!!!!!!
wth rite?? then i told him dun, n this sick guy says he dun like choco... fine...

n just now, he kept laughing at me, when he remembers y in the world, i can fall for such guy... haha... ok lar.. quite true (for me) and mean (of him, saying dat abt his own frend!!), but... it's not dat funny lor!!
i also find out dat some of the fatcs dat he told me in the past abt baby was a little exagerated, actualli a lot!! like he is strong, but actualli not so... n he cant fight!!!
he said he wanna make baby sounds better ... hahahha.... funny rite... i just feel cheated lor.. lolz..

he told me abt baby n ok.. dat bloke is getting from bad to worse... yeah... he kept scolding baby for wasting his life too.... but dat silly bloke always smile~ u know his talent rite?? smile....

anyway, it's realli nice n pleasant to hang out with him again, as in just to get connected... after a few months...
and i am realli happie to know dat after all this years , we are still the same old person, like when we started this friendship... the lazy n crazee apek" and small kid" .......

hapinez in between stress

Today was so surprising, cos some days before, I was just toking to my frends about guys and dat shy guys are the hardest one, as they hardly work on gurls, even if they like u..
Got one experience, and it took him sooooo long, that I ended up hurting him because of some misunderstanding…

Now, I am sooooooo freaking busy, got no time for any thing except work n sleep!! have not been sleeping well for few days, and my work is piling high up there!! But, still, I found 2 ppl kinda interest me, but not as in real love, bla bla bla… just normal pretty face kind… alrite.. they are jub jub” and “pinochioo…. Jub jub was very cool and sporty, where as pinochioo is stylo and unique..

And after dat day, the next day, both of them appeared in front of me, and we met many times, pinochioo even came to my place!! Wonder how he found out ;p
Jub jub was farni… he was more like so manja? Wth rite… although it look cute lar…
And pino was also farni…. He walked around and found himself weird… and ok, he stunned n all.. hahahahaha… and he looked great… I like his style.. although sometimes it may look weird on others, but it look perfect on him.. something like dat…
And this time, it’s not like uk, where I know him , he know me, but we dun really know each other exactly.. this time, I know both of them!! Yeah,
Actually I almost forgot dat I know pinochioo… hahaha… he even ate my cake.. wth?
But this sem, we haven tok, and ever since, I found him staring at me, I also find it funny to tok to him, haha…. I scare I say wrong tings arr.. n he bash me up.. lolz…

Anyway, I dun tink I like both seriously, I am sooooooooo busy dam dam dam busy, and most of the time, I am working my endless projects and I will use my free time, to sleep or watch movie, or do those girly stuffs like shopping or manicure pedicure, and I haven find myself really think about them… ok, I did dream of pinochioo.. but I forgot wad is all abt, coz I slept all the way.. hahaha… I did tot of jub jub, but to a certain extent lar.. like, heh!, dat was cute!! Yeah…

And I like wad they did.. caught caught hahahahhahahahahaha…… u all should know wad rite?? Huehuehue…. But ok lar.. I am too busy to actually dream abt it, like when I was in secondary sch ( walao dat time, so happie, everyday cant sleep.. ;p)… n today pinochioo was funny… he opened the door for me, and he was like eh???... hahahhahah…. but he looked better last week… n tiz morning he was surprised to find me in his place…. Hahahahha… got ya!!

in singapore

hey people... Just came back from US, a few days ago… 2 days ago to be exact… these 2 days have been so so busy…. Coz on dat day that I just arrived (at 1.00 am) I got a very important class at 9.00am!!!! and I just slept for about 4 hours….. so dam tired, but can managed to carry on and tahan until 6 pm…. Coz dats when my whole class finiz… but must do a 2 week assignment in 1 day!!!! Coz supposed to pass up the design brief on the next day….

Gosh….it’s our new project, a competition and we suppose to find a problem dat really exist and solve it by our design…. Cool yeah…. But dam hard… coz must find evidences and proof and even interview and all… and how it relates to the competition… hahaha… dats y…. gosh!! I slept for 4 hours…. Then after I came back from school at 7 pm… I slept until 1 am… coz I was freaking tired, and jet leg…. I haven even unpack my luggage… ;p then did the design brief until 5 am and got another class at 9… my fashion design class… so fun!!! Really love it…. The teacher is nice and he welcomes me happily…. And the year 1 too… hehehe… luckily I got a friend who is year 2 too and not fashion student… so wont feel so left out… then, got another 2 classes until 6 again… so dam tiring…. And I haven get enough rest at all….. hehehe…
So after I came back from school on Friday again… I sleep… this time, until the next day… I was so dam dam freaking tired and I just realized that I haven really ate any proper meals on those two days… actually I haven’t eat any meals…. I just grab a really lite bite and lots of water…. Hehe… cant believe I can survive and don’t feel hungry at all… I think the work and the exhaustion that I feel are greater than hunger…. Haha… for the first time….. c…. I wasn’t a pig after all… hehehe….

Today (Saturday)… I was so tired and really got a good rest… I don’t feel like going out at all… except to buy school stationery and go for my facial… hehehe…. I tink I look worst… after all the different weather and all…..
In the end…. Did not go for my facial and went to watch my coz , coz she is playing for bss band… and today Singapore is having marching band event to break the Guinness world record… so… went there and see…okay… I arrived when it came to the last part and the band played very softly and I don’t know what song they were playing… it’s a mixture of many songs… coz I caught some tunes… haha… anyway… I still love bendemeer… hehe… it’s a huge part of my growing up and my place to chill out, when I was younger… ;p
Yeah…. Really tired and sleepy… some more got soooo many projects to do… and also to catch up with….. have been dreaming funny stuffs since I was in America.. Nightmares… weird dreams… romantic but lame… mouth drooling and silly…. And many more… haha.. even murdery and all… ;p dunno y… maybe I am too tired… hehe..


Dream… Dream…. Dream…..
These are some of the dreams dat I have recently and some which I still remember about it…..
Dream 1: the scary dream…
I was in this place, with some of my cousins and sisters… when suddenly I saw this guy… he is big… a little chubby and looked weird… he kept following us and he seemed to know me… then after some things happen, which I forgot wad… he suddenly stayed with us and he was kinda move closer to me and began to whine… he kept saying dat he know me and all those things and then when I told him that I don’t know him at all… he began to get angry and took out a small sharp thing and threatened me with that…. And then kept whining and kinda like crying…. Then, my cozinz and sistas began to stop him and told him dat actually I know him, I just joked with him…. Woah…really weird and wad the hell?? So… I woke up and felt annoyed… haha… that happened when I was in Las Vegas.. I think…

Dream 2: The Mouth drooling but silly…
I dreamt of my cozin, tan and me were sitting and toking… gossiping I tink… at first there was ting, but she disappeared somewhere.. and the both of us were toking quite seriously and we kept eating chocolate… I am addicted to cherry now, so in my dream I was eating a bar of chocolate with cherry and orange… then, we opened up our fridge and we have lots of chocolate… from superman style to classic style.. really delicious-looking and then my sister and her friend, kiky came home and knocked on the door… we were eating and listening to something loud, so we ignored them… until they screamed at us.. but instead of opening the door for them, we ran and hid ourselves in my ama’s room… hahaha… real funny and messy dream… when I woke up, I felt like eating chocolate… and cherry of coz..
(Saturday, 5/5/05)

Dream 3: Weird….(Saturday, 5/5/05)
I was eating with some of hougang chalet members and we were buying porridge… the seller was an old aunty.. and she looked friendly at first… I like to eat “chang” (parsley I think) so, I asked her for more of that… she gave me a lot and were very nice…
Then, we sat down and ate our porridge.. the place was very dark and messy.. like as if in a pub… and then, suddenly the aunty joined us and we all began to talk.. except me..
Then, she told the rest that she would bring us to her kitchen to show us how she cooks her porridge… everyone was so happy.. I guess her porridge is super delicious … and then, suddenly she looked around and stopped at me and asked… “ will she come with us too?” (in chinese) and her tone and her attitude was like.. “gosh… get lost!!” I got it and I just straight away reply…” I wont go… don’t worry..” and after that everyone was silent and I expected some one to speak up for me.. but all of them just kept quiet and support the aunty and the atmosphere was so irritating there… so I decided to walk out of the place and buy something else to eat… but the place was dark and dangerous… I dunno how it ended but I remember clearly that I wanted someone to jack back the aunty…. I was really fed up that time, coz I did not do anything to offend her…. Haha.. then I woke up….

Dream 4: funny… (Saturday, 5/5/05)
Same day, and the continuation of those 2 dreams…. This one is weird and farni…
Coz before this dream, I hoped someone will speak up for me, and here, someone is right by my side and we were holding hands, and were going somewhere… alright.. this is the weird part… he was a westerner…. Very big… very strong and a little chubby…he looked like a wrestler.. and we were dam cloze.. we even smooch!! And did all those lovey dovey stuffs.. Imagine how close we are… and I look sexy there… wahahahhahaa….. ;p aniwei, when I woke up, I was feeling kinda farni coz it’s so weird and that kind of guy is really really not my type… hahahaha… strong… muscular… wth?


Dream 5: romantic but lame…( in Los Angeles… on the 30th of may I tink..)
Ok.. I dreamt of this guy… a guy that I knew… some of you also know him… and the dream was farni too… we were together and he was kinda asking me to go with him… and then, I was like no way… not interested… but he kept insisting and following me.. more like begging I tink… and I confronted him like.. r u sure?? And all those rhetorical question… and he kept repeating these 3 sentences… I dunno wad.. I mean I remember them when I woke up.. but after dat I forgot about them.. it’s something like.. I am not happy… I am sad… or something… and the 3rd sentence is this… for sure… “ but I will make you happy”…..” I will make you happy” … yeah…
Very serious huh… and quite romantic… yeah… but after all he is my past.. so… it doesn’t really bother me.. just feel farni.. coz it’s been quite some time after that… yeah..

Yupzzz… so dats my dreams that I still remember… Hopefully tonite I will dream something beautiful and hopefully it’s TRAVIS or someone like travis.. huahuahua…