omg!

omg! i just forgot my username n password for my own blog!!
it's been sometimes since i post anything, and nowadays i am quite forgetfull.. i guess thats y

it's fine now, already activate it, hope its fine ;)

just talked to hippo just now, about design and how it affects our lives....
i like talking about this, because no matter how down or stuck you are, it will somehow
become a little bit better after talking it out. no matter how ugly it is.. serious...

recently, made friend with a cool artist, who is also my teacher.. and we really click! we talked about arts, designs, life, people, attitude, dreams, achievement, strengths, weaknesses and others...... it;s like we are very connected, and i like to talk to her because she is very positive about arts and design and she is always encouraging and see the positives sides of arts and designs.... though some people may not think so....
i know this person, who sees art n design as something negative, and worst of all, she is in this industry... it just seems very saddening...
and she feels that we are speaking the art language, because we are art people ;)
i am very flattered!! personally i realized the different feel when you talk about art with some people that dont like/appreciate art... it is less exciting, because it doesnt flow somehow...
but again, art n design is subjective... u can love it or hate it... yeapp
i learn some stuffs from her, hear good advice and questions / words that motivate me to grow and rethink of what i have in mind. she asked me about my style, my favourite materials, those trademark that makes you, you. for now, i only have vague answer, as i am still exploring and trying to find it.. but for shure, i love happy design... design that makes ppl feel smth.... smth that evokes feelings... hopefully positive feelings...
hippow and me are often wonder what is our design philosophy or trademark... we are still finding it... but i can see that we are on the same wavelength... besides really connected, we have similar thoughts about stuffs... when other may think of it as wth, or reallie??

these few days has been thinking about stuffs... like things that i should do, things i shouldnt, things/attitudes that i should change or keep.... things that affect you as a person, to lead your life. it is heavy. yeah. but should be done sooner or later.
found some things, read some lines from it, and try to analyse and even discuss it with close friend, but still haven really got the conclusion. maybe unconsciously i know it, but it haven really whack my head... but will really think hard anout it and do something about it. yesh..

it was also because few months ago, a close person of mine told me about my attitude about work or smth that i am working on.. she said that i am easily satisfied and tend to easified' matters, where i could have work harder, if i want.... i seriously have to agree with this though it may sound wth. i agree that on my years in academic school, i dont really have to study hard to pass... (not trying to brag..) and i tend to pass" my priorities because i am confident that i can do it... maybe not confident, but kinda fine with having okay, instead of excelent or superb..... yeah..
so, when it came to poly life, it sort of the same... though this time round, it is not advisable to have such attitude.. especially in design course, where you need to be unique and different from the rest.. and okay is not a good thing.... i work hard... but maybe not harder? maybe it can be better.... she told me that wadever i have done, can be better, because i can... that's really flattering man.... i always think it is okay, because it seems wow enough... but maybe i shouldnt think this way.... why not make it wow beyond speech.... ? when i looked back and think it's true that i may not really work realli realli hard during pri/sec school, but i realize that i work a little harder for design, maybe not the best yet, but i look at it this way... if i can work harder, and put my best effort for the things i love, it will be very very satisfying rite? and it will be wonderful beyond words....
so, wadever it is, i am working towards that though many obstacles are in the way, like bad habits, and temptations.... but hey, "behind every grey cloud there is always sunshine" (st ema told me that and it is really motivating!)

anyway, feel rather bored at home, and hibernating seems not that pleasing anymore, now try to finish up the big P, and get down to the real thing asap... yesh...



-late'nite thoughts-
miz^k

it's a busy week!!

Gosh!! This week’s work is hella’ lot… and the time is soo littlee
Plus tml is weekend – there are lists of things I wanna buy (includes new heels and clothes), movies!! ( the illusionists, the painted veil, sch for scoundrels, pan’s labyrinth, and lots more!) I know some are coming soon! But I am so exited to watch all the movies!! It’s a very nice feeling u know watching a new movie….. – of coz movies with quality ;p

Next, I so wanna find my Chinese new year clothes, and do my nails!! I so need manicure and pedicure!!

But I can only do all of these after my presentation – which will be on next week Wednesday, 24th jan!! my lecturer was soooo mean to put me and hana on first day! And we are the first 2 speaker!! Imagine that!! I can so die of nervous! But lucky I am 2nd… haha…

And the work requirement is a LOT!! Now I am trying to divert my mind from the fact that tml is Saturday—“tml is not weekend – work work!!” I should chant this!!

Today was a tiring day, coz I hardly slept yesterday nite, but it wasn’t that bad, coz one of the lect likes my design! and dats motivate me to do work! Hehe… ;)

I so wanna hang out with ppl siah!! Have a good meal with fine wine, talk and catch up (sianz… been wanting to meet up with siti, hana, ting, amy all since my bday), the cable car dining – rite emo?,
Wanna go shopping – I saw this really hot pointed black pumps recently and fell in love with it….. sigh** and movies!!

Arghhh…. All of that can only be done after Wednesday…. So till then….. I must work it!!

Sigh**
“tml is not weekend”

freak eww

I was thinking of cutting my hair
Short, simple slightly bob
with long fringe at the side..
Like Victoria beckham
But…. I love seeing me in long hair
Hehe….and I feel more feminine in it lolzz


*huffff……..*
Life is so unexpected
One moment we are here
The next moment we are gone


That moment I was happie spending time with you
Thinking and daydreaming about stuff
Somehow I felt like you are watching over me, in a way or another
Like a friend, a senior, a father
The next moment you are gone and away
I am shure will miss you and the your jokes, “jokes” and –the-blank-stare


Some days ago, you were waving at me, smiling (trying to cool down) and just being you
Seeing ur nick makes me contented enough
But now, it is kinda pizz me coz u are always there just there

And some images appear on my mind…
eww – bunny gal -- eww – bunny gall –
siti tinks its kinda kinky n wth
But I always imagine u with bunny
And still u are just there
Maybe surrender


this fella,
is always here whenever I shoo him
and always here after sooo many weeks….. soo many turn offss

I beginning to feel guilty and bad
Coz it’s not a nice feeling


freak u
coz seeing you, i hav butterflies in my tummy
and the freakiest thing is that it feels the same,
when I saw someone who looks like you
FREAKKK!!


I am so hoping you get freaked tooooo
Sooo freaked off that you cant even wave wave and nod nod
So rooted to the ground that I need to “wake u up
*grin* that will be nice
and then lets walk together again yuh…

To Everyone

"hope you guys are fine and happy"

For you, Emo

Today when you asked me why people left you,
Why they just fade and disappear from your life,
I just went speechless

To be honest, I don’t know what their reason is
But to say that they just “don’t wanna be with you”
Will hurt you more and I know that its sux
It is just something that we never want to hear

Sometimes we don’t understand why things happen
But I always think that there is a reason for it
Be it a freaking reason or excuse
Though it may seems hard to accept,
We gotta face it, and I am learning to accept it

It sux when you try to hold them down, but they just fly away
Sometimes, we do want to soar up high and let them go too, don’t we?

Maybe we didn’t think of it as a farewell, coz we all hate farewell,
Well, I do if you don’t

I don’t know how to console you or make you happy
Because I cant find the answers to all these stuff
I am finding them too

But for now I can lend you a shoulder to cry on
An listening ear to listen to all the hurt and F*@# s
The spirit to just freak it out
Because I know it is not easy to do it yourself

I am glad that we have each other to share
To understand
To freak it out
To screw it all away
Because we’ve been through it together

That is why when others see why we can clicked so well,
I don’t think they’ll understand why

I am glad that we still have the bonds just like the old times
This is more than what I always imagine and I thank you coz
You didn’t let me fly away
And I am glad that I hold you down

God bless and lets get thru this together ok!!
Freak them out!!
luv ya gal*

For you.... grab me punk ("floor brush")

For you, the grab me punk (“floor brush”)

Hey…………
It’s 6.35 am now….
And you are “away”

But I shure love your “jumpy jumpy” action earlier this week
Coz we are so fake” ha ha ha
Ok, I was acting” ha ha…(*nod nod* with innocent grin)
Who knows you would appear down there,
Rite beside me when I just pissed someone (she’s angry!.. opss.. sorry.. )
Forgive me if I tried to “run away” but I was just freaking out! and was just frontin" hehe
But I am really not expecting you to be there…

It’s a nice greeting though~ phunk eh? Y so cute?? Lolz….

It’s just that
The things you do
Made me think of silly things (*qui-nky, confirm siti will say this!!)
But it made me smile too
So, keep it dat way, just like that day…
Just the way you are

It is crazy sometimes to think wander off
When you are just not there, coz it feels like
I am making fool of myself
And I hate ewww!

Argh!! But Really love to be near you
Coz I am able to be myself
And you are just you
Simple enuff”

So, don’t be a bastard
And just be a really good freak ok

C ya around
*smile

bored

-bored - stressed - busied - zombied - frreaked - numbed - lonelied - happied - bithcied - sinned- woke -

dammit.. i am just bored!!!!!!!!!

zombied"

i miss you

hey
i feel so lonely and numb...
happie with wad i am doing now and ppl are great, but
i guess i just dunno where u are, and
thats makes me miss u alot

days passed like hell and everytime i saw places that used
to be so familiar, i just tought u might be there
i know u are not there somehow
becoz u haf ur own life and i haf my own life

but i just feel realli lonely without you
i wonder if i ever see you again
sometimes i wish that someone will just be there to take ur place
but there are none
and that makes me mad

becoz i know i gotta find him and move on
especially when i feel so lonely
does it hurt when u think about me?


i duno wat i feel for u
but all i know is that i was never really lonely and lost when u were there
i guess dats wad killing me now
so shot me down as i flew by

i think i was fine as loving u made me happy everyday

it's funny sometimes
that people just come and go
and u are gone

dat day i was reminded of how much i felt abt u
and i was surprised by it
aint it funny
to think about it now
when i dont even know where u are and wad u are doing

wish dat u are fine and happie with ur life now
after all u really deserve dat
and i will be happie to know that u are happie

bon jour!!!

Bon jour people!! (i got french class this semester... hahaha)

Long time never blog already… hahaha… quite busy with my school works (portfolio, projects…) and also some other stuffs ( has been going out lots this few monthz..)
Wait … I am so hungry… let me fry an egg… haha… !! it’s morning dam mit!!

Scramble eggs and cheese are the best for breakfast!! It was really hard to decide between scramble egg or sunny side up ;p now I am really becoming a greedy gal… it seems dat food are so irrisistable.. wahahahha… especially when I have cravings… like now really crave for something cheesy… imagine some lasagna with the cheesy oozing out!!! best!!!
How sia… I wanna slim down… haha… wanna look nice in all clothes… now really fat!! As in FAT!! And dat day, during my sis’ 17th bday party, yi bin even noticed and said that I gained weight!! Help!! Wth manz…. It’s so obvious ;…<

Aniwei, gotta go to sch later to do my portfolio and some other works …. My photoshop expired and cant do my work! Dammit!! Actually got so many things to post… coz recently really lots of things happened… let me just list them down to remind myself… hahaha…

- Special communion at Uncle’s
- Sis 17th bday
- She will be missed
- Fire!!! Run for your life!! (Monday- somewhere in oct/nov)
- Beautiful eyes ;>
- My Taiwan’s trip
- Cherry fettish ;p
- I think should have more… but I just cant think now with my tummy growling and my eyes dying to sleep… hehehe…

Talk to you guys again.. okie… gotta wake up in 4 hrs time >,<”””” stress!!
Bb

je suis fatiguee

Bon nuit ;)

Oh yeah!! I like HYDE!! Go larc-en-ciel~ coz I am “feeling fine” yeah… hahahahaha